Gift for cupidsbow by eruthros (RPF - Carrie Fisher and Gary)

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Title of vid: A Better Son/Daughter
Recipient: cupidsbow
Vidder: eruthros
Fandom: RPF - Carrie Fisher and Gary
Music: A Better Son/Daughter by Rilo Kiley
Summary: You'll be honest, you'll be brave.
Content notes: Brief mentions of fat shaming+ addiction+ and institutionalization. There is no footage of Carrie Fisher's hospitalization or funeral in this vid+ but there is a shot of her on a gurney (from Wishful Drinking).
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Signed URL: https://eruthros.dreamwidth.org/340619.html

Lyrics
Fanwork credits in order of appearance:

Youtube: Glitter for Carrie by AMANDAJEANNN

Tumblr: Abimerrell, glosolitofa, mattelodchikova,

Deviantart: moishpain

Tumblr: xfilesposterproject, thebarbershopquartet, imnot12, finndameronns, thetwilightbrigade, poseidonne, gvlvxies, righteocean, chaseyesterdays, melodymaysecret, cookiesdf, blu-thunder-bomb,

Twitter: laloalcaraz

Tumblr: rigamo12





Sometimes in the morning I am petrified and can't move

Awake but cannot open my eyes

And the weight is crushing down on my lungs

I know I can't breathe

And hope someone will save me this time

And your mother's still calling you insane and high

Swearing it's different this time

And you tell her to give in to the demons that possess her

And that god never blessed her insides

Then you hang up the phone and feel badly for upsetting things

And crawl back into bed to dream of a time

When your heart was open wide and you love things just because

Like the sick and dying



And sometimes when you're on

You're really fucking on

And your friends they sing along

And they love you

But the lows are so extreme

That the good seems fucking cheap

And it teases you for weeks in its absence

But you'll fight and you'll make it through

You'll fake it if you have to

And you'll show up for work with a smile

And you'll be better

You'll be smarter

More grown up and a better daughter or son

And a real good friend

And you'll be awake

You'll be alert

You'll be positive though it hurts

And you'll laugh and embrace all of your friends

And you'll be a real good listener

You'll be honest

You'll be brave

You'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful

You'll be happy



Your ship may be coming in

You're weak but not giving in

To the cries and the wails of the valley below

Your ship may be coming in

You're weak but not giving in

And you'll fight it

You'll go out fighting all of them

Comments

[cupidsbow]

Quite by accident I watched this last of the three wonderful vids I was gifted this year, and I have to say, that was a fortunate thing. This is something else. It's such a heartfelt celebration of Carrie Fisher's life and a much needed fannish wake, and I'm quite choked up by it. Thank you, festividder. This is really special, and I'm so glad you've gifted it to the world, and to me in particular.

[ironed_orchid]

It's it weird to say thank you for requesting this? Because Thank You!

[ghost_lingering]

I started crying about 15 seconds in and I can't stop. Damn you! You deserve to be covered in glitter, this is perfect and I love it.

[kore]

Man, I cried hard. What a beautiful tribute, and a perfect song for Carrie.

[isweedan]

I cried way much, but in a good way <3333

[no_detective]

Oh wow - perfect song, perfect juxtaposition of clips and lyrics, AMAZING celebration of her as a person and actor AND inspiration and idol to so many. Thank you for making me cry and laugh and cheer with my heart full of glitter.

[bradcpu]

I'm speechless.

Moved.

[runpunkrun]

Saw this go by on Tumblr and came over to tell you how moving it is. I especially loved the shots from the women's march, and what I assume was the second line they did for her in New Orleans.

[em_kellesvig]

I followed you over! Thanks for the link.

To the vidder: What an amazing, heart wrenching, uplifting tribute to an amazing, heart wrenching, uplifting woman. Carrie Fisher was my hero long before I knew she was bipolar like me. Thank you for celebrating her life and legacy.

[purplefringe]

Ohhhhhh <3 This is perfect. What a beautiful, moving celebration of an amazing person. I don't really have the words for this. I love all of it, but I think what I love most is the focus on Carrie's wilful defiance, and the way she inspired so many people - the use of all those tributes to her at the end was just wonderful. UGH. :(

[kiki_miserychic]

Fuck, perfect.

[sol_se]

This is fucking fantastic. Thank you, vidder!!! <3

[par_avion]

Wow, the end really got me.

I love all those photos from last week of the signs (Carrie Sent Me, and the great accidental mash-up of Leia and History Has Its Eyes on You) but I didn't think the vid would get there, because it's all so recent. Thanks.

[alexseanchai]

yes this

[propinquitine]

This is fantastic -- incredibly moving and inspiring, just a wonderful tribute to Carrie's amazing, complicated life. I sobbed my eyes out watching it. Thank you so much for making and sharing this.

[scintilla10]

Ah, I teared up watching this. Thank you. It's beautifully powerful.

[lferion]

This is amazing, gorgeous, moving, and so, so, spot on in just every way. The signs from the marches made me both cry and shout 'Yes!' (Startling the cats)

[wolfling]

This had me crying and grinning at the same time. Perfect tribute to Carrie!

[fairestcat]

Oh man, this totally made me cry! So good!

[sdwolfpup]

Whew, I should not have watched this at 2am. I was not emotionally prepared for that. This is absolutely gorgeous, vidder.

[wenchpixie]

Oh dear vidder... you left me in big, ugly sobs, it is wonderful. Thank you.

[beatrice_otter]

My God, this is incredible. Thank you.

[endeni]

I'm crying ugly sobs.... thanks for this... <3

[endeni]

Just rewatched now and there are tears rolling down my cheeks once again, damn this is so good.

[ironed_orchid]

Tears and joy.

Thank you.

[milly]

I'm... pretty much puddle of tears right now. I wish I had words... Thank you.

[sasha_feather]

<333

*sniff*

[fuzzybluemonkeys]

Really well done vid. (I didn't cry when she died, but I'm crying now.)

[skazka]

Oh, this was just so good -- the humor, the sweetness, the tenacity, and all of Carrie's relationships. (I'm pretty sure I started bawling at the first pic of her with her mom and then just didn't stop -- but it's not a downbeat vid at all, it's really triumphant even when the song choice alone packs such an emotional wallop. I loved all the pics of Carrie flipping the bird throughout and you did an awesome job sourcing footage and moments that get the viewer right in the heart.) This was like a solid gold cannonball of emotions and I'm glad I got to see it right when I needed it.