Gift for chaila by frayadjacent (Friday Night Lights)

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Title of vid: Fire Door
Recipient: chaila
Vidder: frayadjacent
Fandom: Friday Night Lights
Music: Fire Door (live, edited) by Ani Difranco
Summary: "I started to feel like I was on the inside instead of the outside."
Content notes: No standardized notes apply
Signed length: 03:14
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Lyrics
(Lyrics to full song)

I opened the fire door
to four lips
none of which were mine
kissing
tightened my belt around my hips
where your hands were missing
and stepped out into the cold
collar high
under the slate grey sky
the air was smoking and the streets were dry
and I wasn't joking when I said
Good Bye

There were
magazine quality men talking on the corner
French, no less much less of them than us
so why do I feel like something's been rearranged?
you know, taken out of context I must seem so strange


I killed a cockroach so big
it left a puddle of pus on my wall
when you and I are lying in bed
you don't seem so tall
I'm singing now because my tear ducts are too tired
and my mind is disconnected but my heart is wired

I make such a good statistic
someone should study me now
somebody's got to be interested in how I feel
just 'cause I'm here
and I'm real
oh, how I miss
substituting the conclusion to confrontation with a kiss
and oh, how I miss
walking up to the edge and jumping in
like I could feel the future on your skin


I opened the fire door
to four lips
none of which were mine
kissing

I opened the fire door [x 9]

Comments

[kass]

OMG, this is fantastic. It's a perfect song choice -- I love the live quality of it, and when the "Amazing Grace" part weaves in, your clip choices gave me chills. (In a good way.) I love the way this vid shows Tyra's trajectory, where she comes from and who she strives to become. And the people who helped her grow into the woman she is. And the way the vid ends with her striding confidently into her future. Oh, holy wow, this is so beautiful!

[chaila]

Oh festividder, this is so perfect and everything I ever wanted in a Tyra vid! Which is a lot of things. Just, Tyra *hands* I love her SO MUCH and all the reasons why are all over this vid: her judge-y faces, her anger, her vulnerabilities and secret hopes, her determination. I love how she goes from being more observant to getting right in there and spiking volleyballs and studying and trying. I love how you used her mom and Tami both, that gets me right where my Tyra feelings live. But I especially love the through-line of Tami's encouragement and cheering Tyra on. <3 The visuals and intercutting are SO GOOD, Tyra walking away from Tim to Tami's door, Tami encouraging intercut with setbacks. From 2:25 or so, from Tami's emphatic clap and the volleyball to the end, I cried lots. And how you visually constructed her ending, saying goodbye to all these important people, and moving on to college. *draws hearts*

I love the choice of the live song, and the sort of raw quality that added. This does such a good job capturing Dillon too, as her background and context, the football but also the town itself, her job and the things that pull at her to stay. But she doesn't! And then I cried some more. Thank you so much for making this, and filling a Tyra-sized hole in my vidderly heart!

[chaila]

Update: STILL MAKING ME CRY. In case you wondered. <333

Just wanted to come back and say a couple more things I noticed on repeat viewings. :D One, I really love that you don't shy away from the male violence in Tyra's life, directed at herself and her mother both, and how fierce she is in the face of it. And how she turns that same fierceness to her goals. HER FIERCE FACE, so much love and Tyra-ness. <333 And editing-wise, I love the contrasting you're doing, like cutting back and forth between her with her own family and with the Taylors, and how different those situations are. She's just not in the same world as Tami in so many ways, which makes her accomplishments all that much more satisfying. I'm done gushing now but I will be watching this vid MANY MORE TIMES.

[leanwellback]

Oh gosh, this might be the perfect Tyra vid. I have so many feelings right now, I'm mostly incoherent flailing. The live track really compliments the way the show is shot, if that makes sense? But ugh, this is gorgeous. All of the stuff with Tami gets me right in the feels and the ending, with her saying her goodbyes and going off to college is so beautiful. Fantastic job!

[sanguinity]

TYYYYYYYYYYRA!

The pairing of the first time she wasn't joking when she said goodbye -- shutting the door on her relationship with Tim -- and then again at the end, when she was going away to college, and how the first was so frustrated and closed, and the latter so open and upbeat and going into a future... There are bad goodbyes and good goodbyes and TYYYYYYYYYRA.

[heresluck]

Oh my heart. TYRA. Tyra/college is my Tyra OTP, so the arc of this vid makes me so happy! I especially love the "Amazing Grace" bit focusing on her relationship with Tami and the way that what "goodbye" means changes over the course of the vid. Also, TYRA. ♥

[cofax7]

Oh, Tyra! This is a wonderful look at her struggles and triumphs. I got all choked up at the end.

[luthien82]

What a fantastic Tyra video this was! I loved it!

[kuwdora]

elements of Tyra's arc to get to college was eerily similar to mine, so I love her fiercely. this vid does her justice. so much justice. the vid of my heart. want to download now to keep forever.

[franzeska]

I love the strong POV/voice in this.